Sunday, January 20, 2008


This will probably be another lengthy rant-filled entry but I deserve to sort out my thoughts for they are in a tangled mess. I need to rip them apart and organize them.

Usually when I feel overwhelmed, I either stop to think or crash and burn.
Fortunately it’s seldom the latter.

However, in the last couple of weeks, I’ve been running around until I’ve worn out my shoes and have blisters all over my feet. I convinced myself that I had too much to do thus I became self-involved and oblivious to the world around me.

Recently, I was given a mentally hard slap across the face. The words knocked me down and have been embedded in my head ever since. I know that it won’t be long before I’d forget them because I am only human. So right now, I’ve stopped to take a deep long breath.

Those words have made me realize what I was doing all along. I had much to do but yet I could not bring myself to do them, instead I pushed them aside and told myself that I have something else of equal importance to do, unfortunately I took my time in completing it.

Perhaps I kept making excuses for myself because I liked being busy. As silly as it sounds, perhaps I like the thought of having lots of important things to do because it made me feel important.

Now I feel like I’ve stretched myself too thinly by wanting to do so many things at the same time. But yet I’m afraid… because I don’t want to disappoint people. I feel so pressured into wanting to get good results that every failure that I’ve come across, I beat myself up for it, when I should learn form them because failures are a natural part of life.

I’ve let my emotions get in my way again. Many a times I’ve told myself not to do so but like I said I’m only human.
I want to open up to Jason and Kelvin but I find it so hard to. Do I really want them to have the ability to hurt me?
At the moment, I really only have one person to be vulnerable with. Only one person and that scares the hell out of me.

This will be one interesting year.
Anyways! Here's a bit of comic relief!


Friday, January 04, 2008

Summer Fun

Two years in Adelaide and I’ve hardy ever traveled around South Australia.
Ony places that I've ventured to are a couple of suburbs just outside the city.

Yes, I am a bit sad.

But now I can finally stop seeing those dumbfound looks on people’s faces when I say I hardly step foot out of the city because in the past three weeks I've gone to practically everywhere in SA! Woo~! *prances*

It’s not as if I don't want to travel! I love to see and experience what places have to offer!
Send me to Korea and I will bring back Yunho AND your favourite Korean celeb (if you have any) to show you my appreciation!
I just don’t have any friends who have cars! >=(

So how was it possible for me to travel in the past couple weeks??
My neighbour, Wayne went back to Malaysia for the summer holidays so left his car in Josh’s hands. YAY!

Unfortunately, there isn't any air-conditioning in the car which SUCKS! Especially now when it's summer as it can go up to a mind-blowing 42 degrees celsius!
It gets so hot in the car that I can literally feel my brain cooking.
Not good. Not good at all.

Anyway I wish I have more pictures to post here but my phone died too early on during the trip to Yorke peninsula so I'll have to pester Rudi to give me pics that he's taken.

Unfortunately my camera doesn't do any justice to the beautiful scenery but enjoy them anyway!

Watched the sun rise on the pier

These wind-mills were massive and if you listen carefully, you can
hear their blades slicing through the air! It's a bit eerie actually.

and while wading through the waters, I found a one dollar coin! *mini-jig*
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